~Static~

Want to know how i am feeling? Well I feel like My Life is Crashing down around me. I want to leave my house cuz i feel like i am in a cage. i am still treated like a lil girl and i am friggin 19 almost 20. theres so many things i want to do but since i am under their roof i cant. I do love my mom but my stepdad hahahaha he can go to hell and dye for all i care.

I feel Abandoned by my best friend and feel she just wants to be around her *ahem* boyfriend cuz of the stupid things he has done. if you cant have trust then whats the sence. I feel she just wants to keep a eye on him so she dosent get hurt again. I dont want her to but every relationship needs space.

My boyfriend is actually sweet and like almost everything i could ask for. but sometimes i feel like when i am there its like i am not there cuz hes always so busy. I know he has a life separate from me of course which is awesome. i feel i want more attention and just be loved more is all. it mite be just cuz of everything i am going threw but its how i feel. he is amazing though.

Trying to find a job so i can take care of myself so i dont have to rely on other people.

i also want to experience new things and enjoy happy times with the love of my life and friend i have now.